I Wonder?

To Wonder:

to think or speculate curiously: to wonder about the origin of our species.

to be filled with admiration, amazement, or awe.

to speculate curiously or be curious about; be curious to know: to wonder what is time.

the emotion excited by what is strange and surprising; a feeling of surprised or puzzled interest, sometimes tinged with admiration: He felt wonder at seeing the sunset.

I often ask myself; “what allows me to be in wonder?” If I am not in wonder, where I am I? My mind is an interesting mix of thoughts, feelings and clarity or obfuscating busyness. My creative nature sidetracks me so much of the time I am in wonder about how I get so many things done. Is it about remembering, the linear mental process and the plasticity of the mind to hold multiple thoughts at the same time?

I was teaching a conga student of mine one night when something interesting occurred. We each had two drums and he was playing one pattern and I was playing another that ‘locked’ together the overall rhythm. We were probably a minute or so into the groove, as it were, when he looked me straight in the eyes (without skipping a beat) and asked me how my day went. We continued playing this complex rhythmic pattern and talked about the day’s events. I was floored! I had never experienced this before, where I was so deeply involved in one thing and had the clarity of mind to have a conversation too. Subsequently, I have met other individuals, though rarely, who have a similar level of awareness. The feeling that night was one of deep humbling wonder.